Journal #7 (Something I noticed about myself today)

Something that I have notice about myself this morning is that I've been thinking a lot about the person I'm really am. And the person that I appear to be through others eyes. I have realized that who I want to be, around certain people, I can't for some reason or another. I've been trying to figure why that is. I don't like the fact that I have to be two different people. There is a side of me that is really loud, outgoing, funny, who loves to perform and be apart of anything that is positive. And then there's the other side that is really shy, who has this big phobia of speaking to others face to face, talking in front of a lot of people, and has a hard time getting points across. Maybe I only feel like I have to be this way.